Coming to Terms with Who I Am
Being able to complete a masters project took me 24 years especially because I was afraid to complicated is a masters project and I only had to do a presentation in class. At that time, the only thing that I was required to do was to make the presentation in front of the academic advisors and also, my classmates and that will be done. Apart from that, it was also required that you bring along the family members that are able to listen to the speech on that day. Because of the fear and what I heard, I could not be able to invite my family and friends and therefore, I kept them out of the issue but invited my speech therapist. In her purse, the speech therapist brought along some lip balm that was supposed to help me to speak more fluently. In order to boost my confidence and ensuring that everything was right, she ensure that she did an inspection of the notecards that are brought along for the presentation. Stuttering was the major problem that I had and it is a problem that I was born with and I stay with it for quite a long time.
The speech impediment was a problem that I inherited from my dad who had also developed because of being shuffled between many different dads especially during the adolescent years. At the beginning, the speech impediment was not a problem for me especially because I did not see a major problem with it but after seven years, I was enrolled in some speech therapy classes. Leaving the class really was something that I did and I only had to make a lot of excuses to give to my friends. Giving excuses worked for quite a while but one incident repeating myself, it caused a problem. Most of the peoples in elementary school never think a lot about people’s behaviors and therefore, they were very quick to forgive and move on. Giving them another lie that I was going for advanced classes did not cause any problem especially because they thought the best of me at all times.
Being introverted, I never liked the questions that people used to ask in middle school because they started noticing some changes. Jason, one of the kids that we were studying with when I was in seventh grade actually made me go through a very bad situation and according to him, I observed him.
Even after getting my first job, this became a major problem and it is something that has always stuck with me all through and it is bringing my self-esteem down.